pieces

finally putting all of the pieces back together one by one. they fit well but not as well as they used to. the corners are worn and the picture is blurred, but it's still the same picture. my fingers tremble over my puzzle as if it was the last.
there are creases in the pieces from when they were folded over and over. and they feel like a soft piece of cloth .
the pieces they came from me . they're mine. and since i found it, it's been easier to find the right places to put them. it's not so hard anymore to tell which part of my life goes where and which memories i should keep. it's easier to find all the missing pieces that i lost long ago and find and put put in their spots only to be lost again.
pieces aren't hard to find but they are hard to keep. they can fall out of place so fast you won't know that part of me is already gone.
when you look at me you see the pieces that are there and not the ones that are gone. most of me is there, but i'm on the biggest mission of all... finding the rest of my pieces that are still out there to be found.

~if you find any of me out there... remind me who i am so i can have those pieces so i can hurry up to complete me.~

all broken up....

i'm feel all broken up inside...... i wanna scream and my whole world to freeze..... i need answers.... nobody has helped me..... i can't talk to anyone.... it hurts too much. you know... i need a friend....... a good friend...... please help me become unbroken..... because i'm about to get crushed. [[again]]

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who knows...

nothing at all is worthless
not everything is powerful...
i can see this is not goging to be easy...
but i have to try.....
i've been here so many times...
it's almost 2nd nature....
but i can fight this...
i'm am determind to do what it takes......
thats what i have to do to find my way home....
can't leave forever tho...
that would be running... and i don't run..
i will be here when eveything is right...
until then.. what will i do?
i'll keep my head held high...
facing tward the sky...
keep my sould lit with my fire...
and listen to my heart...
but most importantly...
take the blows life life will throw and kepp holding on to the breath i took in.

Poem.... i guess...

As i walk my way through this world i feel as if i'm half.
Half of myslef, half of my heart, half of my soul.
Tryin to figure out if the rest of me is out there.
As far as i know it's not. It's lost along with me.
Triyin to say to myself you won't be unhappy for long.
When all i Knew it was just a lie.
I was looking for my answer, but didn't find one.
Until i was found, my heart was whole again.
Ive come out of the dark and into the light.
I've let its rays shine down and warm my skin.
I let the rain fall from the sky down to my fingers then finally drop to the ground.
And guess what, i've finally found that place that where my heart won't break anymore.

My hands are blood stained from clutching my wounds, as i try to sew them back together myself. Im not gonna lie, it hurts. It hurts so bad that i dont think i can take it anymore. I scream out in pain as i sew every stitch. why am i doing this on my own? because i know the wounds wont heal by themselves. they will just get worse. until i lose all of my sanity all that i am good for... i don't understand this. why does it hurt so bad? why can't all the bad things just go away? pray for me... pray that all the madness stop and i'm lifted form hell all in one piece... because i don't wanna hurt anymore...

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im ready to free fall into your arms and for you to catch me.
im ready for you to take my hands and we run.
i will dance with you underneath the stars all night and the nights after that.
lets get on a spaceship and fly to mars.
we've got forever and nobody is going to stop us.
lets take a chance fly, fly to our tomorrow.
smile like you mean it, love like you mean it.
look at me, i look at you.
i see you for you, with the good.
im ready to put my heart into this.... the question is are you??...... i hope so.

unsaid

unsaid.. one word, six letters, one big meaning. it means not saying. what have you not said. have you not said i love you? have you not said you're my everything? have you not said that you're the thing that makes me happy? i didn't say i love you like i should have.
i didn't say that he was my everything. i didn't tell him that he made me happy. he doesn't know. he doesn't know that he's amazing. he doesn't know that he deserves it all. he doesn't even know what i still feel... but you know he doesn't care. he probably doesn't even think. truth is i think everyday. but what did you expect? that i would totally forget? totally lose all possible feeling? someone said it wasn't bad to feel this way... have you ever felt this way? i bet you have.. suck doesn't it.

"what do i do now that you're gone? no back up plans, no second chance, and no one else to blame. all i can hear in the silence that remains are the words i couldn't say.... what do i do what do i say?" -Rascal Flatts

so unsaid... it's one word, six letters, and one big meaning. it means not saying. so what have you not said.... i bet if you say it... you wont feel like this. hhmm... if only right. yep if only.