My hands are blood stained from clutching my wounds, as i try to sew them back together myself. Im not gonna lie, it hurts. It hurts so bad that i dont think i can take it anymore. I scream out in pain as i sew every stitch. why am i doing this on my own? because i know the wounds wont heal by themselves. they will just get worse. until i lose all of my sanity all that i am good for... i don't understand this. why does it hurt so bad? why can't all the bad things just go away? pray for me... pray that all the madness stop and i'm lifted form hell all in one piece... because i don't wanna hurt anymore...